Thursday, January 29, 2009

Gotta Love the Hubby

So it has been over a week since I posted...nothing too exciting to post. Anyway my 30th birthday is fast approaching. I am not dreading this birthday I am really looking forward to it. I think many people start to think they are old when it comes to turning 30, I find it really cool. The only thing I can complain about I have to really grow up now! :) Not that I haven't had to all ready! So hubby has been all secretive the last couple of weeks and it really got my interest peaked when he told me I wasn't allowed to get the mail until further notice. So out comes my dorkiness, I love getting the mail!! Sometimes it is the only time I get out of the house! Oh well, I am sure he is working along with my mom so I am sure it will be well worth it!

So I am trying to learn all these couponing tricks and Walgreens/CVS tips...if anyone knows all the tricks and would like to give me a tutorial.....please let me know!! Now off to do my mommy duties!!

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Life and Other Fun Stuff!

So after a super busy weekend the week starts again. Saturday night I got a short girls night out with my awesome friend Shannon and the best sister in law anyone could ask for, Jenna. We went to a wine tasting at my friend Julie's house. It was a couple of hours of good laughs and good times with some good friends and most of kids!! It wasn't a long time but enough to refresh my spirit! Sunday we had a great time visiting a church with some great friends. Sometimes it is good to see how others worship, Georgia even went to the nursery with no big issues. That is a victory in itself! We were also able to join the Wii generation on Sunday. I feel like a child trapped in a 30 year olds body when playing video games! It is a fun activity for us to do, Clay and I laughed a lot! So in buying the Wii I spent money on something I wanted, but something I could enjoy with my family. So I guess that is a small victory for myself. My birthday is another story...I still can't decide! Another evening gone, another workout accomplished. I am still up way too late but this is the only way to get time for myself!

Friday, January 16, 2009

What happens when you think too much!

So the wonderful hubby and I start talking about what we are going to do with the remaining weekends he has off and the topic of my birthday came up. He really was just wanting to know what I wanted to do for my birthday but me, in all my greatness, couldn't come up with a single thing. Why is it I am so good about coming up with things for others but when it comes to myself I am completely incompetent? It is like with Christmas money, I would rather spend it on someone else than myself. I have spent more of my gift money on my kids than myself. Why is it so hard for me to do for myself? I knew as a parent you tend to become less selfish but I am afraid I have gone to far in the other direction. I have a hard time handing that dough over for something I don't "need." I really need to start doing for myself more and it doesn't have to take money. I really need to come up with something I really want to do for my birthday. The only thing I asked for, gift wise, was tickets to Phantom. Not sure that will happen but I can hope. I used to love to be the center of attention but now I would rather just stay in the crowd. Is this just one of the transitions as you grow up/older? Who knows...why can't I just come up with something to do for my really isn't that hard! Is it? Suggestions welcome! :)

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Better Days

So after leaving the stress of last weekend behind me I was energized for a new week! Yesterday was great because I started off the day with a long overdue visit from a great friend. She is the perfect mix of suburban housewife and environmentally savvy cool chick!! This is the friend that got me into cloth diapering. I truly wish I could do many of the things she does! She has inspired me to start trying to eliminate many of the processed foods from our diet. So I guess that is a late start resolution. Then last night we got to have dinner with some long time friends, what joy there is when getting a table at a restaurant and the kids outnumber the adults. "T" was just happy to see "Lnly"!! Days like yesterday just remind me of the great simple things in life. Tonight we had a great dinner that I had actually cooked yesterday. It was so simple but so good even Clay was already asking for it again. All it takes is chicken, rotel and black beans. Throw in the crockpot and you have a great dinner. Thanks "S"!! So on to the rest of the week and keeping life simple!

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Last two days..hard decisions.

So I am still fighting this cold, it is really knocking me out. It is so frustrating because I just want to lay in bed but that is not an option. Adding to not feeling well I had to work. So back in September my wonderful brother let me know about a great part-time job opening at Dillons, he is an assistant store manager. It was as a loss prevention officer, decent pay, set my own schedule. I filled out an application back in the middle of September. Almost two months pass and the person filling the position calls and wants to know if I am still interested, I hesitantly say yes. Finally after many different delays I start working last Friday. It was just for 5 hours but "G" wasn't a happy camper and didn't really eat the entire time I was gone. Fast forward to this Friday, I worked for 8 hours..."G" doesn't eat the entire time I am gone and cries for 4 hours!

Today I work again only for 6 hours, she isn't as bad but still doesn't eat well and just generally unhappy. I am so conflicted, I really wanted to help out my family but not at the expense of my children and husband's happiness. I feel bad that 4 months has been put into this process but the delays weren't my fault. I hate being in a position like this. I know what my heart says but sometimes I am unwilling to fully commit. What to do, What to do! I never thought I would be the stay at home mom, but I really feel like home is where I should be, it has become a part of who I am. I don't feel good about what I am doing when I am working.

As for my diet and exercise the last two days...haha!! I have walked a lot, ran a little and had my heart rate up but not because of a workout. I really don't feel good about that, I was really happy about my progress this week. Oh well...on to next week!

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Better Day

Even though I woke up feeling pretty crappy I made the best of it. I got some school work done thanks to my lovely little boy be much more cooperative today! I managed to eat fairly well, drink some water (when I don't feel well carbonated drinks make my throat feel better) and even managed a workout. I was happy to find an OK dessert from Sonic, not great but something I don't feel to bad about. So overall a good day. Tomorrow...a different story. I am starting my part-time job and will be gone for eight hours +!! I haven't ever been away from Miss "G" for that long. It will be a good test for me and daddy!!

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Day Three...not so good.

Ok, so day three didn't turn out to be great. First I wake up to my still sick hubby...the stupid stomach bug. I never really did go back to sleep after that. Next I wake up to a cranky baby and 2.5 year old. Yay!! So my day started great! Oh, did I mention I woke up feeling like complete crud. I did manage to eat kind of ok today but whenever I feel sick I feed that sickness. Oh well there is always tomorrow. Then there is the 2.5 year old...I love that kid more than anything but anyone who has kids will feel my pain. He was just in one of those moods today...didn't want to do anything he was asked/told. We had many timeouts today!! Then to top it all off my loveable little boy decided he wanted to use his potty, in the living room with the two kids I watch in the afternoon here. Not wanting to discourage him, I gave in. Next thing I know he has taken off all his clothes and last his diaper. Yes, the two year old girl I watch thought this was quite funny, I was horrified! He proceeded to sit on his potty, never did go though. So I decided to try and get clothes on this kid. I began chasing him all over the house with diaper and clothes in hand, all the while the two kids I watch are laughing. I catch him and he squirms and wiggles making it very difficult to get him dressed, I finally succeed in getting a diaper on him, I decide this is enough. Sitting on the floor after all this it finally hits me how crappy I really feel, my whole body aches, head feels like a thousand pounds and I can't breath. There will be no workout tonight...I am going to attempt to go to bed earlier than normal. Chasing a two year old can count as a workout right? So will jump back on the wagon tomorrow! Not that I really ever fell off, just a bit of a detour.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Two Days in a Row!

Yay for me!! I did my other workout dvd tonight! It was great!! Now I am going to try and do both tomorrow!! Oh by the way....I HURT!! I knew I was out of shape but come on!! It hurts to sit, but hopefully that hurt will turn in to one awesome booty!! Now off to bed....still need to get my beauty sleep!

Day Two

So we had a home visit from parents as teachers today. I always love when she comes because she confirms we are doing a good job as parents, which sometimes I wonder if I am doing as good of job as I should. Tristan loves when she comes because she always brings great toys. We got into a good conversation about parenting. Most of it was about how we grow as parents and keep learning along the way. It is so true! I love the confidence her visits bring to me and my parenting. The day kept getting better!! Great news for great friends always puts a smile on my face. I wish I would have gotten more school work accomplished but it will come in time.
By the way...the workout dvd I did last night kicked my butt!! I knew I was out of shape but come least the soreness lets me know I am doing good for myself. Lastly, whoever thought leftover sugar cookies were a good idea was wrong!!

Monday, January 5, 2009

The Start

Ok, so it just occured to me that all these thoughts running through my head on a daily basis might be good to get out. In one month I will be turning 30, ugh! Not that I think 30 is old by any stretch but I think it has kind of snuck up on me. I ran into a former co-worker tonight, someone who has much more life experience than myself. We worked together at my high school job, it has been almost 13 years since I first met her. It got me thinking, at 17 years old where did I think I would be at by 30? Where did I think I would be...have I accomplished what I thought I would? In some ways I think I have done more, I have a wonderful husband who I have been married to for 8 years and 2 of the best kids anyone could ask for. I get to stay home, for the most part, and raise my kids. I have been truly blessed! Sometimes I feel something is missing....that is me. I am nowhere near the person I was...back in the day! I have let myself go. I used to take pride in me and I have let that go by the wayside. My goal for 30 is to get myself back. I have said many times, "this is it, I am going to start working out and eating right," and just as many times I haven't stuck with it. I am just average in my mind and I am no longer content with just being average. I want to be spectacular. I read a blog posted by a good friend of mine, it was more than a blog about her weightloss journey, it was about finding herself. She will be my inspiration and if she will allow I will post her blog. So here it the best of myself 2009-----I turn 30!!